i feel so schizophrenic... im doing something that's not what's on my mind... i do things naturally yet they're not the things i want to do... it's like im driven by something or someone to do these things... it's like i'm living in a different world...

im still feeling melancholy inside though my actions don't show it... i really don't know what to do... i just want to be happy... i just want to live my life... full of the good things that i need to do and i want to do...

is this enough?