i feel so ashamed and i dont know why... maybe because there's something that needs to be done or something that must be said but is kept inside...

haaay... so much for that, it's been a long time since i made a post. i actually check it every day but too lazy to write a post...

well.. for a start... he's a bit lonely and he doesn't know why... he never felt this kind of emotion towards someone...he's serious about you... he loves you but there's something wrong.. the feeling's not right.. he's expecting something but it doesn't come out... he just... he just can't feel it... he doesn't know why he feels this way but it's the truth... and sometimes he feels that you don't love him the way he loves you... or maybe he's the one who does not love you that much... he doesn't know... but one thing is for sure... he loves you and he'll always will.. he hopes that his feelings are wrong...

sportsfest baby!!! masaya ang sportsfest... masaya ang group ko... ok ang mga group mates ko... masayahin silang tao... astig team leader ko! si elliot! wooohoooo! sana may mapanalunan, kahit ano ok lang...

"di rin magtatagal... mawawala ang lahat... panandalian lang ang kasiyahan... kaya ito'y iyong panghawakan..."

i feel so schizophrenic... im doing something that's not what's on my mind... i do things naturally yet they're not the things i want to do... it's like im driven by something or someone to do these things... it's like i'm living in a different world...

im still feeling melancholy inside though my actions don't show it... i really don't know what to do... i just want to be happy... i just want to live my life... full of the good things that i need to do and i want to do...

is this enough?

right now im really not into myself... im thinkin about a lot of things.. all cramming up into my mind...

how can i say it? should i say it now? what will happen if i say it? whatever it maybe... i know... this could be something that would break my heart... but every thing happens for a reason but this time... it happens because of me... because i didnt do anything about it..

i love you... i love my friends... i love everyone i met... i love you guys... this time its real... i learned a lesson... you really never know what will happen next... cause every little thing that is happening around you will somehow be a warning or a sign that something more... something big will happen... and we really dont know when or what will happen but we can always tell why even if the reason would hurt us in the most painful way...

live life... just dont be someone who thinks that there is no more hope... live everyday as if its your last... i know it sounds too common but its true... no matter what you do, always think of doing the good things... the things that could make you happy, especially the things that could make your friends or family happy... just live a life with no regrets... i promise... i will...

haaay... boring day, but it was cool kasi my girlfriend came by to our house.. it was stupid though kasi la kami nagawa, i mean nanood lang ng tv then yun na, she just wanted to see me kaya siya nagpunta, di nga siya nagpaalam sa mom niya eh, plano ko sana manood ng dvd sa taas kaya lang, stupid cousin ko , dun nagpunta, nanood din, la na tuloy kami mapwestuhan, sa baba na lang, nood tv, i couldn't even hug her kasi nahiya siya pati ako, kasi nasa haus kami, hiya siya sa mga tao... but i was happy just being with her... i really love that girl...=)

after that, punta sana kami pulanlupa to pay for the qouta sa liga, tapos derecho na pasukat ng uniform, kaya lang, sobrang ala nagrereply, la kwenta kausap yun iba sabi ni renn, hehe, kaya di na kami natuloy, di na kami sali liga, hehe

kaya ayun, tambay muna kami ni marv at van sa nagsara ng xam, akalain mong manakaw lahat ng cpu! wala ng tambayan, tapos ministop, kain ice cream, tapos mcdo, kain ice craze or kung ano man tawag dun, cool couple, tapos di pa nakuntento, tambay sa bahay nila coniat, hanggang magttwelve na ata, hehe, la kwenta usapan eh, tawanan lang at gaguhan solve na, hehe, di pa sana kami uwi kundi lag kami pinauwi ni con eh, hehe, gustong gusto na kasi maligo dahil napakainit, chaka may pasok pa kasi siya, ayun, uwi na kami, that's the day today...

...i could have stayed up with you all night had i known how to save a life...

i wanted to start all over... i wanted to have something new.. at least for this posts... this simple blog... i never really imagined life to be so full of very weird surprises...

now i now know what it feels like when someone goes away without even saying goodbye.. now i know what it feels like to have regrets...

"life is all about living it fully..." make your every day worth living... coz you'll never know when it will end... maybe tomorrow... maybe this wednesday... or with a blink of an eye..."

don't let anyone run your life... not even yourself... coz it is not yours... it's not ours... it was just given to us by someone way powerful than anyone here on earth... so we don't have the right to ruin it... we are made with a purpose... and that is to glorify HIM..."

"it maybe hard... but glorifying him could be very simple... do good things... share what He has given you to others... use it in a good way... by those simple things, you are already glorifying Him... we are made to glorify HIM..."

these are just some of the things [he] told us... [he] was a man of super faith... [he] could be a super hero... one of the justice league maybe... coz that's [his] favorite... an inspiration... a [man] of wisdom... [someone] who will be remembered forever... for the zeal [he] showed in serving HIM... for [his] enthusiasm... for [his] kindness... for [his] care for [his] loved ones...

IDOL kita kuya danes... I will always remember the straight line... I will always remember the yellow cab and the starbucks... I will always remember the eyes... I will always remember our stupidity whenever we're together... I will always remember the english words... I will always remember to level up.. I will always remember how to discern... I will always remember that service = sacrifice... I will always remember the all-mid... I will always remember you... and everything you taught me... everything you shared to me... everything you have given me... everything you have provided me... thank you might be too late... but still... you have it...... I'm beginning to feel mortified...

a qoute from ONE PIECE:"Pano ba namamatay ang isang tao? Pag nabaril ba siya? Pag nalason? Pag di na humihinga?Namamatay lang ang tao pag wala na siya sa puso at isipan ng iba..."

enjoy ka ngayon diyan kasama SIYA... maraming salamat...